babydoll blues xxx

feb 21st 2012

20.20

wendyhouse

was an early start
another ladies luncheon i needed to sort out...

phew..it has been a very busy few weeks and cant wait again for another
free time to rest and relax

post valentines week and a lovely weekend that had passed
it makes me smile thinking of how He was here and spent time at last xxx

a lot going on but still cant take Him off of my mind
my Darling smiling and laughing at things we talked about

but cant help feeling the blues
for some reason or another
maybe because theres a lot on my mind...

this splitting headache didnt help as well,
my god it felt like hell!!! lol

all day this sng keeps playing in my head
'how sweet it is to be loved by you'

over and over

i makes me smile in wonder
how simple things can make me smile
and make my heart go light...xxx

winter is almost over
and spring is in the air..
went for a walk yesterday bought myself
some daffoldil flowers
how it reminds me of the island
and the times i have been there...
how i picked them from the garden
and put them around the house to make it all seem like summer xxx

how time flies!
and how my life had changed so much
sometimes i cant even keep up with my own time!

how i now live two different lives
and in this other world
sugarbowl
it amazes me on how it made an impact to me
in more ways than one...

how my Darling found me
how this life started
and how it is of interest to a lot of outsiders...
i would not have known how it is too
if i hadnt been curious when i did...

how my life has entwined in this life
and how someone found me and made me happy unexpectedly

i am lucky,yes i am lucky...
He made me very happy.

and if theres another opportunity
for me to be asked to reveal this life
i dont think its any worth my time

has thought about all of the consquences
and actually i wont want to go through it
even if it is that worth it...
its not time yet...


i want it to be said and done the way it really is..
not for some producer twisting the truth on how my life is...

i was more scared of losing the man that i have fallen inlove with
regardless of what lay ahead...

and so i dont understand why i am feeling the blues
and cant quite explain why?

maybe its me?
or there is really something waiting to happen?

i cant help it even if i try to avoid it...

i have the blues
and this is what is the reality...

i have to come to terms on how to be strong
what ever it may be ...

but tomorrow i know its another day,
another day to look forward to,

i dont want to look back
thats not where i want to go...

and theres is something more that is waiting for me
down the road...

walk forward,do walk forward i tell myself

forget about the blues
there is someone there
who is happy to take it off from you xxx